Tuesday, May 18, 2010
so more than a year has passed, and many things have changed...

12/18/09
19 credit hours per week, 15 weeks of classes, 2 group projects, 4 papers, 3 class presentations, 13 tests, 7 finals completed. My busiest semester yet my best semester to date.
I started out the semester with a great apartment, with a great roommate, great friends that live close by and a great boyfriend who was always there for me whenever i needed. We always spent the night together, worked on homework together and ate all meals together. As the semester went on things started to get messed up. My friends got mad at me for not ever hanging out with them. My boyfriend and i fought more often and i procrastinated on all the work i had. Two weeks from thanksgiving break my boyfriend decides that we arent right for eachother. I had 2 papers that i hadnt even started on that were do right before break. I was completely distraught over the break up and could not focus on anything, much less my papers. I cried all the time, and was never happy, i missed him all the time.
It may not have been my longest relationship but it was the one that has affected me the most. I was doing so well in my classes and i didnt want to fail, so i went to get help from my teachers in the form of extentions for the large assignments that were due before the break.
Why is it that i feel like i always need a guy in my life? I am happy when i am in a relationship and completely throw myself into the relationship, but once it is over and i have started to get over the guy, i start looking for another one, why is i that it need to have someone there to fill the boyfriend/companion/more-than-friend card? Does my heart not need time to heal? I know that i shouldnt be looking for a guy, cuz i know that i am not over the relationships in a month or two.

12/31/09
He lied to my face.
I asked my ex a week or so after we broke up if he had feelings for his ex, that i wanted to know the truth from him face to face, not over facebook or some other form of inpersonal communication. He is now back with her. How could he lie to my face? I would rather have known then and not now. I will never trust him again. Him and anyone related to him will be defriended.

1/1/10
He will no longer be a part of my life, as much as i can help it.

today: 5/18/10
anyways, i managed to stay single this entire semester, altho i did go on a few dates and also hooked up with paul... not sure why but definitely will not be happening again tho...
i took 22 credits and finished off all my 4000 level math classes, jsut have the 3000s left, ugh. almost done with my psych classes, jsut have a 4000/lab and a senior seminar... i think i also have an area requirement left and then ochem and physics... so not too bad...
last summer i got into yoga with ashleigh at golds gym and now i looove it so much!
most of my friends have recently or will soon graduate from college...
im not really sure what to expect from this summer, i wanna see ashleigh and maria, and kings dominion, travel...

something jsut for fun...
Pepsi or Coke? coke!!
Soda or Juice? hmmm porlly soda..
Pulp or No Pulp? no pulp definately
7up or Sprite? sprite maybe?
Strawberry or Blueberry? strawberry! yumm
Yellow or Purple? ... purple?
Blue or Green? depends on their shades, but prolly blue...
Rock or Rap? rock
Hip Hop or R&B? hip hop!
Tv or Movies? oooh hard... depends on what mood im in...
Scary or Comedy? depends on the people im with and the mood im in.. both are good... maybe slightly prefer tv
Books or Magazines? hmm... magazines?
Night or Morning? night definately
Kisses or Hugs? both... kisses!
Life or Death? life?
Bicycle or Motorcycle? bike
Up or Down? uhh... up?
Noise or Silence? noise! i hate silence
Run or Walk? prolly walk
Burger King or McDonald's? oooh.... bk double stakers, mcd happy meal
Apples or Bananas? banana ;)
Mexican or Italian Food? italian!!!
Winter or Summer? hmmm summer? only cuz there are no classes
Spring or Fall? spring.
Chocolate or Candy? chocolate!
Chicken or Beef? depends on what mood im in... beef is slightly better tho
Left or Right? right
Doritos or Cheetos? yuuum.... prolly like cheetos a little bit more
Veggies or Fruits? fruits... sometimes veggies
Smoke or Drink? drink!!! smoking is naaasty
Cold or Hott? katy parry song? hahaaa ummm... cant really handle either... maybe cold cuz you can cover up..
Jason or Freddie Kruger? uhhh... jason...
Weird or Normal? weird!
Male or Female? male?
Elmo or Ernie? elmo?
School or No School? no school...
Meat or Fish? both good... prolly meat tho
Long or Short Nails? long? but not too long
Hot Fudge or Caramal? hot fudge definately, caramel sucks
Halloween or Christmas? christmas?
Pizza or Spagetti? paaasstaa
Scream or Cry? scream!
Camera or Digital Camera? digital camera
DvD or VhS? dvd
Roses or Lillies? roses!
Pickles or Cucumbers? cucumbers... i guess... pickles are disgusting!
Love or Hate? love
Chocolate or Vanilla? CHOCOLATE!!
Latte or Expresso? i guess latte cuz it prolly smells less like coffee than an expresso
Outside or Inside? depends on the weather... prolly inside tho
Evil or not Evil? not evil?
Clean or Dirty? clean i guess...
Bad or Good? good?
Sunrise or Sunset? sunset!
Truth or Lies? truth
Britney Spears or Christina Aguliara? prolly spears
Ashlee or Jessica Simpson? hmm... jessica?
Beyonce or Ashanti? beyonce? only cuz of telephone tho
Eminem or 50 Cent? eminem?
Simple Plan or Good Charolette? good charlotte
Green Day or Blink 182? oooh.... wow both really good... green day?
Nivana or System of The Down? hmm... nirvana only cuz of guitar hero songs
Korn or Incubus? eh... incubus
Apples or Oranges? orange flavored things? otherwise apples
Teacher or Student? teacher
Rich or Poor? rich
Sports or Reading? reading
Cookies or Cake? hmm... cookies?
Town or City? city
Birds or Horses? horses
Cats or Dogs? DOGS!!
Monkeys or Penguins? oooh hard... monkeys?
Rain or Snow? snow
Sun or Moon? hmm... moon?
Tattoos or Piercings? oooh.... both hot... piercings?
Smart or Dumb? smart! def!
Aol or Msn? aol im!
Cd's or Mp3 Players? ipod!
Baked or Mashed Potaoes? mashed potatoes
Motel or Hotel? hotel duh
Cars or Buses? cars all the way
Trains of Planes? planes
Forks or Spoons? spoons i think
Family Guy or Simpsons? hmmm... simpsons?
South Park or Spongebob? southpark!
Money or Love? love
Hamburgers of Hotdogs? hamburgers
Nachos or French Fries? fries!!!
Blue or Green Eyes? blue eyes!
Blonde or Brunette? blonde guys? brunette girls?
Labels or No Labels? no labels
Converses or Etnies? converse!
Pen or Pencil? pen is so much better
Beach or Pool? pool... no sand
Dolphins or Whales? dolphins!
Drums or Guitars? guitars
Salt or Pepper? salt
Basketball or Football? basketball i guess
Soccer or Baseball? soccer maybe
Snowboard or Ski? skiing, easier
Skittles or Starburts? skittles maybe
Finding Nemo or Shrek? oooh.... both sooo good... uuuh...skrek?
Halloween or Nightmare on Elm Street(movies)? halloween
Sausage or Bacon? bacon
Skateboard or RollerBlades? uhh... blades
Ferris Wheel or RollerCoaster? coaster all the way
Wet or Dry? dry
Circus or Carnival? carnival! the rides!
John Kerry or George Bush? kerry! bush sucks ass
Bath or Shower? shower
Karin at 1:37 AM

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Many new events today. Inaguration day for obama. Also, first day of classes.
Started out the day having 2 classes, one at 2pm and one at 5pm. I was on campus at 11 for lunch with colleen, and then proceeded to add a class that had already finished when i added it, combinatorics with shimizono, who i had for multivar, so im hoping it will go well. then my 2pm class was canceled because it was a lab, and labs never meet on the first week of classes. So i only have one class today.
Also, i tryed to add a psych major and a psych class, but i failed at that because they are not changing majors all this week and they arent force adding any more ppl into classes because apparently they are all tooo full. I managed to cut my finger, who knows how, and it hurt like hell at lunch. Also, at lunch i couldnt get my mt dew open for like half an hour and i really needed the caffeine. I managed to lock my keys in the math lounge while everyone was in class, so i had to get dr parry to let me in, that was embarassing. My room is still a mess. I still havent bought any books. And im still not sure about the classes that i am taking... so far not the best start to the semester.

Karin at 3:45 PM

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

i lived at the library for the past week or so and was studying for most if not all of the time there. finally done with all my tests and ready to hang out with friends for a dayish before my mom comes to pick me up and take me back to enjoy a very boring summer at home. ugh so not ready to go back.

Karin at 11:37 AM

Thursday, April 17, 2008

a year ago 32 were brutally killed here.

makes me think that my problems arent that big. ben talked to me last night after the vigil (since the whole thing with matt). didnt seem bitter, or mad at me, or avoiding me. maybe its bens ra self that seems to act nice to others, or maybe he was jsut hiding his feelings about everything that happened and how he was kind of stuck in the middle.

couldnt spend the night alone there were too many memories in my head, so i went to go hang out with imran and spent the night there. we went to the cascades so as not to be on campus were there were probably going to be lots of camera personnel trying to get a story. i had never been to the cascades in these 2 years that i had been here at tech, probably because i would never do anything if it wasnt with matt. it is absolutely beautiful there, but a pretty long hike.

Karin at 9:29 PM

Monday, April 14, 2008

i feel like now that im not always with matt im hanging out with more friends, my friends, not just his friends that i befriended. i feel a whole lot more independent. ive been going places and doing things alone, well sometimes. ive been relying on more than one person, which is what i used to do with matt. i would rely on him to do everything and go everywhere. i dont miss being that dependent on one person. but i do feel like ive lost a lot of rituals and a few friends. i dont want to be treated badly again by a boyfriend again, i dont want to be the one begging for the guy to come see me. he should want to see me and want to be with me. i was forced into being less dependent which i should have been a long time ago, i was forced to grow up. it wasnt how i would have wished it to happen, but there was no other way that it would have worked on me. although it didnt feel good, i feel like it was something that was necessary. i needed this change, i needed to get out of that relationship. we had reached the point that it was just comfortable and that is probably why we didnt want to change it. we needed something like this. i needed this, although i never would have done it because it was painful and hard to readjust from something that was over 3 years in the making. that was almost a fifth of our lives. we grew up together, and grew apart even though we didnt realize it. we became best friends, and thats the only part right now that i regret, is that we are not friends anymore. the rest was a change for the better.

Karin at 5:20 PM

Friday, March 21, 2008

in less than 24 hours i will no longer be a teenager O_o

im not really quite sure what to think about this...
i mean in no longer going to be able to use the im-a-silly-teenager-i-dont-know-any-better-dont-get-mad-at-me-just-make-fun-of-me-excuse, but i havent gotten any new privileges like... drinking... *sigh*
i wonder if anything will truly change, other than the things that have already recently changed. thisngs change for a reason, i just wish i knew the reason. im not going to lie, i miss how things were just a year ago. could i go back to that? the security of it all? the comfortableness of everything in its place?

Karin at 12:24 PM

*stolen from my old blog from February 13, 2004*
4 years later, what has changed? whats still the same?
ok so how much have i changed? green is old stuff and blue is now...
a few answers, very few, are exactly the same cuz i feel exactly the same way.

What is your favorite...
gum: juicy fruit. orbit gum, citrusmint, mint mojito... but i will take any gum cuz i always need something in my mouth. lol.
restaurant: does coldstone count? theyve got super hot boys. and yummy ice cream.. mmmmm. cold stones, if it counts, fridays and stake and shake... we really need one closer to home.
drink: umm... Mountain dew live wire come to mind... yummy. peach ice tea and mountain dew live wire!!! but not together.
season: summer... i hate school. depends... summer cuz theres no school, winter cuz theres snow, and spring cuz it has my birthday!!!
type of weather: 50-70. :) im a wuss. cant take either extreme. 50-70. im a wuss. cant take either extreme.
emotion: happy... and hyper... which is what i definately am right now! happieness and love...
thing to do on a half day: sleep, pamper myself, read vapid magazines, go online, call friends and play video games. sleep, hang out with friends, watch movies, read magazines, facebook, video games, and waste my money at stores.
late-night activity: compuuuuter. hanging with fiends, watching movies, facebook.
sport: does color guard count?... otherwise... swimming... weeee. running is amusing when im not doing it alone and swimming is always fun.
city: dunno... nyc?
store: target! hah. :) target, walmart, build-a-bear, the mall!!!

When was the last time you...
cried: ionno. about a month ago.
played a sport: does gym count... we went bowling! went to the gym about a week ago if that counts...
laughed: 5 minutes? at Jackie... like always. umm ionno...
hugged someone: ionno. a while ago...
kissed someone: to long to think about cuz it makes me depressed. too long ago...
felt depressed: ummm... kinda... im feeling really worried about one of my friends... umm... when matt dumped me... maybe up to a week and a half after he dumped me.
felt elated: all today... maybe because of all of the sugar i've had... lol. at GANGREENE with the girls this past weekend :)
felt overworked: all the time. every week wiht all the hw i have to do for my classes.
faked sick: i would feel too bad to do it. uhh... right before spring break. lol. so like 3 weeks ago.
lied: ummm... prolly not to long ago... but i cant really remember. not sure.

What was the last...
word you said: umm? i think it was "bye" when i hung up on the phone.
thing you ate: chocolate... or sweet tart hearts... sugar... yummy!!! chicken parmesan at lunch today in the dining hall.
song you listened to: Jack Johnson's Bubble Toes. love song by sara bareilles.
thing you drank: water. water.
place you went to: target last night to get candy to give to people today. joe's room to pick up my stupid vector calculus book to do homework
movie you saw: how to deal... it was soo cute movie you. be kind please rewind.
rented: how to deal. sydney white.
concert you attended: ummm... dont remember. the virginia tech tribute concert at the beginning of this school year.

Who was the last person you...
hugged: laura... she was having a bad day... hope you feel better... you did the right thing, i promise even if you-know-who doesnt know it... you will get thanked for what you did eventually. umm... all the people i hugged while at uva with ashleigh and maria :)
cried over: fuck yu. matt.
kissed: hmmm.... wouldnt you like to know. matt.
danced with: ummm i dont know.... prolly homecoming... hahaha. uhhh... prolly at uva... again, not some of the clearest memories.
shared a secret with: Laura. phil?
had a sleepover with: Sarah, Alexis and Laura... hehe. do our sleeping arrangements in nyc over spring break cuz in that case, ashleigh, matt c, andrew y, nam, and matt cs dad. hahaaa.
called: uhhhh.... ashleigh? maria.
went to a movie with: ummm.... ionno... hahaha. uhhh..... dont remember, family?
saw: Colleen and Laura as i was leaving school... which caused me to almost lose my bus... lol. maryann who is lying on her bed right now.
were angry with: ummm... i dont really hold grudges. matt? yea prolly matt.
couldn't take your eyes off of: oooh this guy that was driving into my neighborhood as i was walking home from the bus... lol. uhhh...?
obsessed over: oh man... it you know my the least bit you would know... lol. ... i dont really obsess... or at least thats what i like to tell myself.
Have you ever...
danced in the rain: if by dance, you mean run home cuz i didnt wanna get wet. yea i dont really like the rain...
kissed someone: yes. yea.
done drugs: only legal ones. only legal ones
drank alcohol: yeah, never gotten drunk tho... haha yea.... ;)
slept around: no. no.
partied 'til the sun came up: no... only stayed up til the sun came up at a sleepover... lol. haha yea...
had a movie marathon: oh yeah. of course.
gone too far on a dare: nope. no.
spun until you were immensely dizzy: yeah ... used to do it at recess with my friends in elementary school... look at earlier response... that hasnt changed... altho i think ive done it recently too...
taken a survey quite like this before: yes... all the time. i have no life and find this more interesting than government and chemistry which i think should die... not only have i taken a similar one... ive taken this exact one before.

~*Random*~
College you currently/plan to attend: hmmm... dont know yet... lol Virginia Tech!!! w000!!!
Favorite band: dont got one... but there are a lot that i like... still lots that i like...
Cheech or Chong?: i cant remember which is which ionno
Metallica - yes or no?: no no no they're ok
It's Lars, isn't it?: no they just suck huh?
Random palindrome: .... Who's Chino Marino?: i dont know or care for that matter ionno...
What does CCR stand for?: no idea... clear circle revolution?
Virgin?: yes...are you? no, lol
Favorite Author: ummm... J. K. Rowling... hahaha i still love j.k. rowling... but... louise rennison is pretty good too. :)
Dave Matthews Band- yes or no?: NO NO NO NO NO NO meh...
Will I hold you again?: umm sure... uhhh... O_o
eBay - like or dislike?: its okee love
What does CPR stand for?: ionno cardiopulmunary resusitation
Hank Williams, Sr. or Hank Williams, Jr.?: who what? dunno
Favorite color(s): neon green, neon pink, and black bright pink and lime green and bright blue... or just most bright colors
Favorite CD: ummm... probably a mix ionno random stuff
Clear or white glue?: cleeaaar white?
Favorite food: chocolate ice cream, chocolate pudding and cheesecake... yummy chocolate ice cream, chocolate pudding... pasta
Herbivore, Carnivore or Omnivore?: omnivore bwahahaha... although i try to avoid red meat... cows are cuuute omnivore :)
Republican or Democrat?: democrat!!! democrat!
What do you want to do for a living?: soething to do with biology... yeah i know im a dork... hahaha uh... doctor... if not that then maybe teacher... ?
Do you like our current president?: NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! that illiterate monkey should die!!! no i still hate bush!
Turn-on(s): piercings, smooth skin, crazy smiles, confidence, athleticism, spontaneity (is that a word?), hot legs, hot abbs... mmmmm wow even 4 years ago i liked piercings... piercings still turn me on, tattoos (as long as its done tastefully, not too many), pretty eyes, smiles, confidence (as long as they arent arrogant), ass, abs, spontaneity...
When do you want to get married?: mid to late 20's mid to late 20's
Do you love them?: huh? do i love who? the person im gonna marry... i would hope so...
Why?: well, duh why do i love them... cuz they are amazing person...?
Do you smoke?: smoking is the dumbest thing you could ever do! still agree with my answer from before.
Turn-off(s): being uptight, being weaker than me, smoking, stupidity, no sense of humor, conceited people, PUSSY BOYS, liars, anorexic guys, people that sit on their ass all day smoking, arrogance, stupidity, liars, eating disorders, no sense of humor, boring

Karin at 12:22 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

its been more than a year since i last posted on here... a lot has changed since march 6th 2007...
ive been through a lot.
-on march 22, 2007 i turned 19. not an exciting accomplishment, but an accomplishment none the less.
-on april 16, 2007, the shooting at tech. the shooting that changed my school forever. i was in west aj on the first floor. the first shooting happened 3 floors above me. and the other across the drillfield. 32 were killed on that day. everything changed. things that remind us of that day. now because of that day our doors are locked all day long even though he got in when the doors were locked anyways so there was no reason to have our doors locked all day long. every time we bitch about the doors being locked deep down we know the reason and remember that day. there was a test alarm this morning as i walked to class. i was reminded of that day. that day will never be gone from my memory. that horrible day that virginia tech was forever changed will always be with me.
-in august 2007 i went to paris and rome with my mother. we saw so much. so much sight seeing. ate so much ice cream (breakfast, lunch, dinner).
-on august 20, 2007, started my second year at virginia tech. nothing too exciting.
-in february 2008 matt and i broke up, or should i say, matt dumped me. he said he does not trust me, he is disappointed in me, he down right hates me. i always thought that when we broke up again, we would still be able to be friends, but that is definitely not the case. i hate that he hates me. even though he has been when we broke up, hes been saying horrible things about me after we broke up, i really wish i could still be his friend. i guess since we really weren't friends before going out there was nothing really lost, but it makes me think, did i just waste 3 and a half years with him? throw away 3 and a half years of my not so long life? should we have just called it quits after the first time we broke up? why did i have to give him the present when we broke up? why did it not affect me as much, was i already not completely in the relationship anymore? this may sound superficial and not very important, but somehow i have the need to write about it.
i feel like my heart will have a really hard time letting anyone in again. its been hurt too much in the past and it does not want to get hurt again. i don't know if my heart can take any more pain. will i be able to truly love someone as much as i did matt again? is it true that you never forget your first true love? was matt that for me? cuz i have had boyfriends in the past, but never as long as with matt. we did go out for 3 and a half years. nor did they feel like my past relationships actually meant that much, i was young back then, too young to actually know what love was. i mean yea i liked my boyfriends, back then, but i didnt love them, at least not how i loved matt. at least i know what is like to truly love someone and be loved back, or so i think, hope.

i turn 20 in 4 days. i wonder what this new year will bring me. true happiness? sadness? true love? heartbreak again? failure? success? more friends? less friends?
this new year i need to do better in school. get more friends that are girls that go to virginia tech. spend more time on my extracurriculars. i need to be happy.
Karin at 11:44 PM

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

so i written in here in like forever... and i am really cold right not, not cold like omg-its-getting-as-i-just -slit-my-wrists-and-major-amounts-of-blood-are-rushing-out-of-me-and-im-dying cold, but cold as in my-aunt's-house-is-freezing cold... all she did when i told her that i was cold was to hand me a blanket, why couldnt she turn up the hear? but anywho, lets see... the last time i wrote here was... at the beginning of september... so first of all, its not 2007. yay for 2007. its a new semester and sadly my teachers arent all as cool as the ones from last semester. matt and i got back together, like 2 days after i last wrote here... did i mention its really cold... insidently enough, i am actually back in fairfax again, only this time i am not only functioning on 2 hours of sleep, this time its more like 8 hours, and it would have been more if my aunt hadnt waken me up early again... she really needs to stop doing that...ooh i now have a fish, well i had two, but the stupid goldfish that i had, died like all goldfish do. but i do still have one fish. its a dark-blue-bright-red betta, kai. it means ocean in hawaiian. not that he is living in the ocean or near the ocean, even though there were many seagulls on the drillfield the otherday when it was raining, so maybe there is an imaginary ocean on campus, but i doubt it. on the bright side, its almost my birthday, only 16 days left! yay im so excited. ashleigh and maria were gonna come down to tech, but i think it might just be ashleigh now. oh well we can still go to a party or watch a movie with matt and his hallmates who are fun... or maybe... who am i kidding, thats all there is to do in tech. speaking of matt, i really miss him, i really wish he would come home soon... too much skiing... why has it snowed so much in fairfax and like nothing at tech, we are in the mountains, it should have snowed more. ooh today is tuesday, gilmore girls and taco bell tuesday!!! omg im soooo hungry, tummy sooo growly...

Karin at 2:51 PM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

omg i dont know how understandable this is going to be because i am running on 3 hours of sleep, so have fun. omg i think i should really have gotten more sleep. i have done way too much this weekend for this little amount of sleep.
friday, since i dont have classes, i went to the math empo. having to go to the math empo every week when im free really defeates the purpose of having no classes on a day, because thats the day that i consequently have to go to the math empo. so i woke up at like 11 and went to university mall with colleen like i promised i would, which turned out to be really good because i really needed binders, and then we went to the math empo. i managed to get back for dinner. then colleen, joe, phil and i were gonna make an awesome trip to walmart, but then we found out that the bus to walmart stopped running at like 5 and it was like 7, so we wandered till dan invited us to go bowling. i had no socks. i didnt wanna wear bowling shoes without socks, that just insanitary, so i was about to go back to my dorm for sock, but one of dan's suitemates offered me socks, so i took them. weird? i dont really know, but now i have a pair of socks that are not mine, and i feel that i should wash them before returning them... anywho, we did eventually go bowling and it was pretty funky, especially with all the dancing and singing. then we decided we wanted to watch a movie, and not just any movie, but a movie from blockbuster, so we ventured to go find a bus to blockbuster. finally, at 9, we get on the correct bus to blockbuster. we ended up getting on the "karaoke bus", or that is what the bus driver called it. we sang along with amazing songs all the way to blockbuster and ended up singing while we were getting off the bus also, causing the people waiting for the bus to stare at us because we looked totally drunk. haha. so after almost killing ourselves to get across the street to get to the blockbuster, we get in and finally decide on a movie to watch. kids in america. a "smart" teen movie. then, we proceeded to watch more movies. at about 4 in the morning, when we put in pirates of the carribean, phil and i went for a talk about, well me. it was indeed a helpful talk, that lasted 2 hours. when we got back it was 6 in the morning and i basically crashed right after that.
today was really interesting to say the least. it was game day so everyone was going crazy. i got back to my dorm at about 10ish and got ready to go watch the game on a tv with colleen, joe and richard because we all did not have tickets. we ended up not finding the game on any tv, so we went to the staium to watch it from the outside for a bit. that was really boring, so we went to pritchard to hang out. so i finally told about my experiences at tech and had a good heart to heart. then richard and i went to eat and leadned a lot about eachother that we did not know. then we went to play pool, which i sucked at. then we played ddr! omg i hadnt done ddr in so long and i am totally out of ddr shape. i wasted soo much money doing that, i really need my ps2 and my ddr. after that we went and sat on a wall and said hi to everyone that passed, it was amazing and totally exhilarating. we actually met people that invited us to watch a movie, which was really cool, because we watched office space, but i was soo tired that i just wanted to sleep.
i am never gonna be able to catch up on sleep here, because every night i get less and less sleep and i am more and more tired.
neeeeed sleeeeep...
Karin at 11:58 AM

Thursday, August 31, 2006

i hate winter rain!
omg its only august, granted the end of august, and its already raining like it were winter, granted there is a hurricane passing by, but still, it shouldnt be raining as though it were winter... thats just wrong...
the stupid rain made me change pants 2 times... and i had to wear shorts cuz otherwise anytime i stepped outside, my pants would get soaked and then id have to change again...
i hate winter rain soo much, especially since my dorm is far away from all my classes, and i had three classes today, so i had no choice but to actually go out today in the rain and get soaking wet...

*note to self*
get shoes with better traction in rain, dont wear flip flops in freezing rain, and wear only shorts in rain to keep from changing pants frequently.
Karin at 8:51 PM

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

how to better peel a potato! that was the name of my math lesson, and infact, my teacher brought in a potato and started peeling it in class... i love my math teacher, in a non-sick-my-teacher-is-awesome kind of way that is, of course...
ice cream extravaganza was awesome except for the fact that i ate waaaay too much ice cream... it was amazing!!! chocolate ice cream, hot fudge, chocolate syrup, chocolate chips, m & m pieces, crushed oreos, sprinkles, and cherries... yummy...
loving the free food!!!


college is awesome!
but joe keeps calling me a slut. i know he doesnt genuinely mean it, but it is getting really annoying and really starting to hurt... all i have done is make out with a few guys that i met this year. is that such a bad thing, does that genuinely warrent being called a slut?
am i that bad of a person??? really please tell me i'd rather know now... be truthful... dont lie just to not hurt my feelings, cuz thats already happened before and it hurts...
tell me the truth!!!
Karin at 11:59 PM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

this college life thing rocks amazingly...
like the fact that richard, phil and i were able to get ice cream at 10.30 at night...
go late night unhealthy cravings!
Karin at 11:05 PM

Monday, August 28, 2006

i was feeling really bad tonight... so i went to go watch a movie with the main campbell people (phil) and dan? how does that make any sense... anywho... i did... and it may have been one of the most confusingest movies i have ever seen... it was a scanner darkly, even the name is confusing. well it did the trick and got my mind off of things...
but whatevskis i digress... homework sucks and i havent started it yet so thats what im gonna go do. woo!
Karin at 11:49 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

so i had no classes yesterday, FRIDAY, which would have been awesome, except for the fact that i had to go to the math emporium because i missed my orientation because of the crazy shooter on monday... so i went, finished the orientation and planned to take all 4 of the quizzes i had to take...
at the end of 4 hours there i had only finished one of the quizzes... needless to say i already hate the math emporium...
i got back and phil and i went to his dorm to play ping pong and pool which was really cool and then we decided to go back to joe's to watch a movie and spend the night there, because his roommate, although really cool, is never there... phil and i slept on the floor, not together, and joe slept in his bed. it was interesting... and i woke up with phil very close to me... a little too close for comfort. lol. phil needs to learn to sleep without moving around alot. hahaha.
tonight phil convinced us to go swing dancing because joe was crushing on some girl that had invited him to go swing dancing... so we went as moral support. joe, phil, colleen, dan, and me... i truly did not think that i was gonna have a good time... and i might no have... but dan offered to go play pool and go bowling at break zone...
so we went. i never knew dan could actually be nice to me. i actually had a lot of fun with him and we had a great talk... i actually got to know dan a little bit... then when he got bored he went home and i decided to find joe, phil and colleen again.
turns out they were still swing dancing and so i ventured in. phil decided to show me the new swing moves he had just learned and i actually had fun swing dancing with phil. haha.
Karin at 11:39 PM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

again???
wtf is wrong wiht me?
Karin at 11:57 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

omg my math teacher rocks!!!
he comes in in a suit, sunglasses, and one headphone in his ear impersonating agent smith, and no one had any idea who he was cuz after a few seconds and "i think we have a problem here, no one has any enthusiasm", he left the classroom... everyone was sooo confused and had no idea what had just happened... then he comes back in with a huge rectangular fender case and blaring wake up by rage... he puts down the music down on the table at the front and then places the fender case standing up on the table at the front and opens the fender case and pulls out a math book! hahaha... then he writes WAKE UP on the board and starts talking about the music and then finally about the class...
he is sooo cool!!!
Karin at 8:38 PM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

so finally my first class as a college student. it was supposed to be exciting, fun, insightful...
all i can say is... i was late. and consequently i felt awkward in that class... then my next 2 classs were huge lectures (650 people and 350 people)... i got there probably 5 minutes before that class started and was surprised to see how many people were there. i had to sit in the very back of the lecture hall... maybe its just me, but im used to robinson time... i had just mastered getting to class at the perfect time before the bell when just the right number of people had gotten to class so that i didnt look like a geek for getting there too early or an asshole for getting there late... and now they throw this at me. thats not fair. when did anyone say that i had to get to a class extremely early to get a good seat? this is not right. i should be able to get there just a few minutes early and get a good seat. were did all of these early people come from, cuz obviously they did not come form robinson... oy vey...
Karin at 7:57 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

so today i was supposed to start my academic year with linear algebra in the math emporium at 1.30 and calculus at 3.30... but if you watched the news, you realized that it obviously did not happen. The crazed lunatic on campus, Morva caused all classes to be canceled and all of us to be on "lock down".
a lock down is actually a funny concept on a college campus, although we were supposed to stay in our rooms with our doors locked and no leave unless we had to pee or were having an emergency, no one listened, except maybe Phil. lol. i, being a so called rebel, left my room at around 12, because of course i had to eat, and didnt come back to my till it was dark. so much for being safe. :)
had this happened back at Robinson, we truly would not have been able to leave the school other than to go home. when the DC sniper John Allen Muhammad and John Lee Malvowent around shooting people in freshman year, we on a lock down. we werent allowed to eat outside, we werent allowed to go outside for gym and we were rushed on to our buses.
now thats a lock down. what we had was a joke. a statement that wasnt even enforced. an attempt to show the world that we are all "safe" and that nothing would happen to us. when Malvo could have attacked any of us in a heatbeat.
Karin at 9:31 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

umm... yesterday was... fun...
i hung out with joe... and then he wanted to go find ahroom... so we went
she was hanging out with francisco and some guy she met from facebook, kevin...
i went to my first keg party here at tech... and then we walked home at which point ahroom got tired and walked off to her dorm... then we all went to my dorm to meet up with phil and watch a movie, van helsing, which was good... and then we all spent the night at my dorm... which is when it got interesting...
i let loose and had fun, which is what i needed to get my mind off of things...
even though i had fun at the time, i think it may have made things worse in my mind...
and so here i am writting everything down on 1 hour of sleep...

Karin at 8:19 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

i didnt know i could hang out with phil so late into the night without him getting mad or annoyed at me. hahaha. it was amazing, he came over at 10ish and we kind of installed him bran-new mac book, which has a pretty cool but kinda scary built in camera... then he got thirsty at like 1ish in the morning so we went around exploring my building for a vending machine... and when we got there... none of us had money on their hokie passport... so we had to go back to my room to get change... finally when we had gotten the drink that he wanted, we started the movie that we were gonna watch, which didnt end until 3ish.
my ra even saw phil and i going into my room at 1ish and didnt care at all... im soo loving college life... except for still feeling alone all the time...
Karin at 4:31 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

here i am all alone in my dorm room because all of my friends move in today and are still organizing and such. plus my roommate does not move in until tomorrow mid-dayish... so im alone for now with nothing to do but tell the entire internet community how i feel.
my mom and grandmother have barely left 4 hours ago and already i want them to come back. i feel totally alone and I dont know what to do about it. i just want my friends and to not feel alone anymore...

i do wonder… is this feeling of aloneness going to go away soon? cuz i dont want to feel like this anymore...
Karin at 4:28 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

here i am once again on a blog... although i thought i had moved on (xanga, myspace, facebook)... obviously i have not

here i am again... although this time somewhat different...

* it is 2 and a half plus years after my very first posting on a blog
* i am 4 plus hours from the computer where i started writting on my first blog
* no longer am i in highschool feeling awkward... now im at college feeling... different? im no quite sure what
* at times i feel very alone and miss my bestest friends who are more that 2 hours away at different schools
* but at the same time i am happy to have some awesome friends coming here too

... but im still me

im not gonna lie... i miss fairfax and the people... but i also like this environment... and the freedom that comes with it.
Karin at 12:47 PM