Tuesday, May 18, 2010
so more than a year has passed, and many things have changed...

12/18/09
19 credit hours per week, 15 weeks of classes, 2 group projects, 4 papers, 3 class presentations, 13 tests, 7 finals completed. My busiest semester yet my best semester to date.
I started out the semester with a great apartment, with a great roommate, great friends that live close by and a great boyfriend who was always there for me whenever i needed. We always spent the night together, worked on homework together and ate all meals together. As the semester went on things started to get messed up. My friends got mad at me for not ever hanging out with them. My boyfriend and i fought more often and i procrastinated on all the work i had. Two weeks from thanksgiving break my boyfriend decides that we arent right for eachother. I had 2 papers that i hadnt even started on that were do right before break. I was completely distraught over the break up and could not focus on anything, much less my papers. I cried all the time, and was never happy, i missed him all the time.
It may not have been my longest relationship but it was the one that has affected me the most. I was doing so well in my classes and i didnt want to fail, so i went to get help from my teachers in the form of extentions for the large assignments that were due before the break.
Why is it that i feel like i always need a guy in my life? I am happy when i am in a relationship and completely throw myself into the relationship, but once it is over and i have started to get over the guy, i start looking for another one, why is i that it need to have someone there to fill the boyfriend/companion/more-than-friend card? Does my heart not need time to heal? I know that i shouldnt be looking for a guy, cuz i know that i am not over the relationships in a month or two.

12/31/09
He lied to my face.
I asked my ex a week or so after we broke up if he had feelings for his ex, that i wanted to know the truth from him face to face, not over facebook or some other form of inpersonal communication. He is now back with her. How could he lie to my face? I would rather have known then and not now. I will never trust him again. Him and anyone related to him will be defriended.

1/1/10
He will no longer be a part of my life, as much as i can help it.

today: 5/18/10
anyways, i managed to stay single this entire semester, altho i did go on a few dates and also hooked up with paul... not sure why but definitely will not be happening again tho...
i took 22 credits and finished off all my 4000 level math classes, jsut have the 3000s left, ugh. almost done with my psych classes, jsut have a 4000/lab and a senior seminar... i think i also have an area requirement left and then ochem and physics... so not too bad...
last summer i got into yoga with ashleigh at golds gym and now i looove it so much!
most of my friends have recently or will soon graduate from college...
im not really sure what to expect from this summer, i wanna see ashleigh and maria, and kings dominion, travel...

something jsut for fun...
Pepsi or Coke? coke!!
Soda or Juice? hmmm porlly soda..
Pulp or No Pulp? no pulp definately
7up or Sprite? sprite maybe?
Strawberry or Blueberry? strawberry! yumm
Yellow or Purple? ... purple?
Blue or Green? depends on their shades, but prolly blue...
Rock or Rap? rock
Hip Hop or R&B? hip hop!
Tv or Movies? oooh hard... depends on what mood im in...
Scary or Comedy? depends on the people im with and the mood im in.. both are good... maybe slightly prefer tv
Books or Magazines? hmm... magazines?
Night or Morning? night definately
Kisses or Hugs? both... kisses!
Life or Death? life?
Bicycle or Motorcycle? bike
Up or Down? uhh... up?
Noise or Silence? noise! i hate silence
Run or Walk? prolly walk
Burger King or McDonald's? oooh.... bk double stakers, mcd happy meal
Apples or Bananas? banana ;)
Mexican or Italian Food? italian!!!
Winter or Summer? hmmm summer? only cuz there are no classes
Spring or Fall? spring.
Chocolate or Candy? chocolate!
Chicken or Beef? depends on what mood im in... beef is slightly better tho
Left or Right? right
Doritos or Cheetos? yuuum.... prolly like cheetos a little bit more
Veggies or Fruits? fruits... sometimes veggies
Smoke or Drink? drink!!! smoking is naaasty
Cold or Hott? katy parry song? hahaaa ummm... cant really handle either... maybe cold cuz you can cover up..
Jason or Freddie Kruger? uhhh... jason...
Weird or Normal? weird!
Male or Female? male?
Elmo or Ernie? elmo?
School or No School? no school...
Meat or Fish? both good... prolly meat tho
Long or Short Nails? long? but not too long
Hot Fudge or Caramal? hot fudge definately, caramel sucks
Halloween or Christmas? christmas?
Pizza or Spagetti? paaasstaa
Scream or Cry? scream!
Camera or Digital Camera? digital camera
DvD or VhS? dvd
Roses or Lillies? roses!
Pickles or Cucumbers? cucumbers... i guess... pickles are disgusting!
Love or Hate? love
Chocolate or Vanilla? CHOCOLATE!!
Latte or Expresso? i guess latte cuz it prolly smells less like coffee than an expresso
Outside or Inside? depends on the weather... prolly inside tho
Evil or not Evil? not evil?
Clean or Dirty? clean i guess...
Bad or Good? good?
Sunrise or Sunset? sunset!
Truth or Lies? truth
Britney Spears or Christina Aguliara? prolly spears
Ashlee or Jessica Simpson? hmm... jessica?
Beyonce or Ashanti? beyonce? only cuz of telephone tho
Eminem or 50 Cent? eminem?
Simple Plan or Good Charolette? good charlotte
Green Day or Blink 182? oooh.... wow both really good... green day?
Nivana or System of The Down? hmm... nirvana only cuz of guitar hero songs
Korn or Incubus? eh... incubus
Apples or Oranges? orange flavored things? otherwise apples
Teacher or Student? teacher
Rich or Poor? rich
Sports or Reading? reading
Cookies or Cake? hmm... cookies?
Town or City? city
Birds or Horses? horses
Cats or Dogs? DOGS!!
Monkeys or Penguins? oooh hard... monkeys?
Rain or Snow? snow
Sun or Moon? hmm... moon?
Tattoos or Piercings? oooh.... both hot... piercings?
Smart or Dumb? smart! def!
Aol or Msn? aol im!
Cd's or Mp3 Players? ipod!
Baked or Mashed Potaoes? mashed potatoes
Motel or Hotel? hotel duh
Cars or Buses? cars all the way
Trains of Planes? planes
Forks or Spoons? spoons i think
Family Guy or Simpsons? hmmm... simpsons?
South Park or Spongebob? southpark!
Money or Love? love
Hamburgers of Hotdogs? hamburgers
Nachos or French Fries? fries!!!
Blue or Green Eyes? blue eyes!
Blonde or Brunette? blonde guys? brunette girls?
Labels or No Labels? no labels
Converses or Etnies? converse!
Pen or Pencil? pen is so much better
Beach or Pool? pool... no sand
Dolphins or Whales? dolphins!
Drums or Guitars? guitars
Salt or Pepper? salt
Basketball or Football? basketball i guess
Soccer or Baseball? soccer maybe
Snowboard or Ski? skiing, easier
Skittles or Starburts? skittles maybe
Finding Nemo or Shrek? oooh.... both sooo good... uuuh...skrek?
Halloween or Nightmare on Elm Street(movies)? halloween
Sausage or Bacon? bacon
Skateboard or RollerBlades? uhh... blades
Ferris Wheel or RollerCoaster? coaster all the way
Wet or Dry? dry
Circus or Carnival? carnival! the rides!
John Kerry or George Bush? kerry! bush sucks ass
Bath or Shower? shower
Karin at 1:37 AM